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Well, I can't be bothered explaining what happened after I logged out yesterday. It's too much to explain and kinda embarrassing pmfsl.
To be blunt, I cried. A lot.
But put it this way, my parents said I either leave DeviantART for good or I take very frequent breaks in between. And if this happens again, I'll have to leave for good.
It's true, DeviantART has caused most of the problems I have in life, and it has caused my grades to drop significantly. I slack in school and I'm always distracted and I hardly ever do my homework anymore. Plus, it's just made me babyish really. How I don't know, but it's like I have no backbone anymore. The smallest things send me over the edge and make me snap, I have mood swings, I always think everything will turn out my way, I slip in and out of concentration, I'm distracted, I'm having medical problems. It's just changing me.
Of course, DeviantART alone isn't to blame. I have had lots of problems in life outside of DeviantART (school is one of them, as said above) and life is tough at times. I always thought my life was simple but I honestly feel so down half the time.
I'll be back on SakuraGravity
when it lets me reactivate (tomorrow) but just be aware I won't be on that frequently anymore. It's a sacrifice I have to make if I want to stay with you guys. I'm just treading on thin ice. If I didn't have an exam today (that I didn't revise for when I knew I should have, luckily it wasn't difficult at all), I wouldn't have been in school. My parents are worried about me, they don't usually see me in the state I was in last night. It was awful.
I just need to man up and stop daydreaming and thinking dreams are reality, I need to start thinking more logically and hopefully I will improve.
I hope to stay with you guys for a good long time, so hopefully this isn't goodbye.